giovedì 18 agosto 2011

Vi ricordate di questo messaggio?  L'abbraccio del tradimento

Ora mi sento un po' meno in colpa.  Ho iniziato a chiedere i miei ometti per un abbraccio....e poi dico...."adesso dammi un grande abbraccio da Thea".  Sembra un abbraccio specialissimo in questo modo.


Sono contenta di aver scritto di questo.  Scrivendolo, mi ha dato modo di pensare bene.




Remember this post? unfaithful hug

Well I feel a little less bad about it.  I have started asking my boys for a hug.... and then I say...."Now give me a great big hug from Thea".  It seems like an extra special hug this way.


I'm glad I wrote about this.  By writing about it, it has given me a way to think about it.


Christmas in July. Natale a Luglio.

Ho partecipato in due scambi a luglio.
Ho partecipato in molti altri scambi nei forum delle mamme.  Questa volta erano MOLTO speciali. Questi scambi erano per le mamme speciali.  Mandare un dono ad una mamma speciale così da sentire il calore e conforto da un dono.  Extra speciale perchè solo le mamme speciali sanno cos'è speciale per noi.... e cosa puo' farci sentire piu' vicine ai nostri piccoli.

Grazie alle mie mamme speciali.




I have participated in two swaps in July.  
I have participated in many swaps in parenting and mummy forums.  This time these were VERY special.  These swaps were for Babyloss mums.  Sending a little something to another babyloss mum so she can feel comfort from a gift.  Exra special because only BLM’s know what is special to us…. and what can make us feel closer to our little angels.

This is my gift from the Christmas in July swap www.ciaolapo.it


 This is my other special gift from the Christmas in July swap http://facesofloss.com/

Thank you to my two special BLMs  I really do love what you have sent me… and treasure them with love.

Happy Christmas in July(August) to you both and all BLMs




lunedì 15 agosto 2011

Ho visto qualcosa simile qualche minuto fa.  Era Giuseppe .... che scendeva la strada con la figli di mia cugina.  La stava accompagnando a casa.  Pesavo che non potrà accompagnarla da nessuna parte.  scusami piccola.




I saw something very similar just a few minutes ago.  It was Giuseppe.... walking down the street with my cousin's daughter.  He was taking her back home.  I kept thinking that he will never be able to be side by side with Thea and walk her places.  I'm so sorry Baby girl!!!

domenica 14 agosto 2011

Unfaithful hug.... L'abbraccio del tradimento....

Non ci posso fare niente.  Ne ho bisogno.... eppure mi sento male dopo averli dato.  Di cosa sto parlando?  Abbracci!  Abbraccio i miei ometti e li bacio..... chiudo gli occhi e penso a Thea.  Ho bisogno del suo contatto fisico.  Odio il fatto  che li abbraccio pensando a Thea.  E' come tradirli e lo faccio solo per me stessa.  Sono sicura che se loro lo sapessero a chi sto pensando mentre li abbracccio.....sicuramente perferirebbero non riceverli.  

Perchè tutto è così difficile.  Rivoglio la vecchia me!!!! 


 I can't help it.  I need them.... yet I feel so bad after giving them.  What am I talking about?  Hugs!
I hug my boys and kiss them.... I close my eyes and think of Thea. I need HER physical contact.  I hate the fact that I hug them and think of Thea.  It's like I'm unfaithful to them and I'm just doing it for my selfishness.  I'm sure if they knew who I'm thinking of when I hug them.... they would definately prefer me not to.

Why is everything SO hard and difficult.  I want the old me back!!!!!!


giovedì 11 agosto 2011

GRAZIE ROSSELLA!!!!

Non posso smettere di ascoltarla....


Translation....

Mum and Dad I would like to talk to you,
about love, about the love you gave to me,  
for life and to tell you that I will always continue to 
inspire you.

Because you heart is huge
beacuse your heart flies
it flies above words 
and above people
Above the belief of having the truth
The truth

Father, hold my hand, hold it near to your heart 
and you can feel I love you
and whilst the world makes noise
Whilst the world can see the sun
I don't want to sleep at the bottom of the sea anoymore
I ask to just fly

Fly above the words
above the people
Above the belief of having the truth
The truth

Now I can love, now, now I can run and play
now!  Now I can fly above the words
Above all of the people
Above the belief of having the truth.

Mum, what do they know about pain
of what you can feel
when you have to make a desperate decision
and when you were 20
made of plans and dreams of wanting a baby
that was going to change your life

that you cuddled to your heart
that you saw taking his first steps
and slowly building
it's life with dignity

Now I can love, now, now I can run and play
now!  Now I can fly above the words
Above all of the people
Above the belief of having the truth.

Mum and Dad, one day we will meet again,
And we will hold each other tight
and we will do lots of things together

when you feel a shiver
that crosses your skin
that's where I will be present

your little girl FOREVER

Now I can love, now, now I can run and play
now!  Now I can fly above the words
Above all of the people
Above the belief of having the truth.




Virtual friendship..... Amicizie Virtuali....

In poco più di 4 mesi ho capito che l'amicizia virtuale è più forte di alcune amicizie lunghi una vita.

Alcune mamme molto generose che non ho mai incontrato in vita mia.... ma che conosco da 8 anni mi hanno mandato un dono bellissimo.  Non posso ringraziarli abbastanza.

Devo dire che .... non misuro l'amicizia dai doni che ricevo.  Le parole di conforto che ho ricevuto da www.mammeonline.net e www.mumsonline.co.uk e pure www.ciaolapo.it e www.forun.sandsforum.org.

Grazie MOERS!!!

Davvero non riesco a ringraziarvi abbastanza.!!!




In a little more than 4 months I've realized that virtual friendship is even more stonger than life long friendships.

Very kind mums that I have never met.... but that I have known for nearly 8 years sent me a really beautiful gift.  I can't thank them enough for it.

I must say though.... that I don't measure the virtual friendships by the gifts I recieve.  The words of comfort I have had from www.mammeonline.net and www.mumsonline.co.uk  and of course www.ciaolapo.it and www.forum.sandsforum.org

Thank you MOERS!!!!!

I really can't thank you all enough!!!!





Thank you!!!!

martedì 9 agosto 2011



I want my daughter back!!!


Rivoglio mia figlia!!!!!