I'm back.

You probably didn't even realise I was gone.  (I don't write much anyway ;) ).

In my absence..... in these weeks.... I went to England.... I kissed my brother "ARRIVEDERCI" (till I see you again).... and we buried him with his mother.  

So here I am.... short of a brother .... or maybe just slightly more richer as he now lives in my heart.

Seeing him ..... still....not a smile... not a hug.... not hearing his laughter and seeing his big eyes looking at me was totally UNREAL.  He had his Italian football shirt on.  We put his favorite football scalves in his coffin with him.  

I put a little rosary in his hands.  It was kissed by all of us.   Two very close BLM's also wanted me to hold it tight for them.... and that will forever remain with him in eternity.

On the day of his funeral.... there were SO many people there.  This only confirmed what we thought of him. He was thoughtful, kind and loving.... and surely others thought that too.... or they would never had attended his funeral.  

That whole day I kept looking at the front door thinking that he'd be walking through the door aksing what was going on.  

I know he's gone.... and I miss him terribly.....but then I hear this little voice inside my head...HIS voice.... saying "OH MRIA!  Yeah.... never MARIA.... MRIA!  Don't be silly.... I'm not gone... I'm here!  I'm always with you when you want me."  Today I heard him say.... "Thea's beautiful.  She's got beautiful wings.... she flies everywhere because she can't walk yet".  I know.... I'm going mad!  But I quite like this madness.  

Gone from our home but never from our hearts

HO telefonato a mio papà ieri  alle 20.30.  Non ha risposto.  dopo circa 15 min mi ha telefonata e ha detto " quando il telefono ha squillato ed eri tu.... in quel momento John ha spirato"  Sono lontana ma lì con il mio cuore.  Mi manchi fratello maggiore John and per sempre mi mancherai.

I phoned my dad yesterday at 20.30. He didnt answer. After about 15 mins he rang and said 'when the phone rang and it was you ... That was when John took his last breath. I was far away but there with my heart. Miss you big brother John and always will

My big brother John...

Rieccomi a scrivere di mio fratello maggiore John.

Ricorderete che vi ho raccontato di lui .... del suo essere alcolizzato e che eravamo molto vicini a perderlo?  Bene... John ha smesso di bere.  Stava andando alla grande.  La cosa è che bevendo così tanto in così tanti anni non fa bene al tuo corpo.  Adesso il suo corpo sta cercando di punirlo per aver smesso di ricevere la sua droga preferito.  L'alcol!

John è in ospedale.  E' entrato con dei problemi al prancreas.  Lo stavano per operare.  Mentre era lì ha avuto un infarto ed è stato messo in terapia intensiva.  Oggi e' in semi coma.

Preghiere saranno ben accette.

Here I am again writing about my big brother John.

Remember me talking about him being an alcoholic and we were very close to losing him?  Well John gave up drinking.  He was doing really well.  The thing about drinking so much in so many years don't do your body any good.  So now it's as though his body is trying to punish him for not giving it it's favorite drug.   Alcohol!

John is in hospital.  He went in for problems with his pancreas.  They were going to operate.  Whilst he was there he had a heart attack and was put in to intesive care.  Today he is in a semi coma.

Any prayers will be greatly appreciated

A Year with Thea....

Translation:

I've learnt....

to give the right meaning to words....

That nothing must be given for granted.

to understand who are real friends from the people I know.

that pain is consuming

to listen to you.

to talk to you

I've said to myself lots of times that I will never be the same person as before

but I've thought too....

that I don't want to go back to who I was!

because that would mean that we had never met.

you have taught me lots of things.

a little person of 1700gr can do this and more.

We have started our second year of a life ahead of us.

Anyone help?

I remember visiting a blog..... one I follow.... because I tend to follow nearly all the blogs I visit.  As I was saying .... I remember this one blog post where a BLM had posted some pics about a walk.  On her t-shirts there was a space where she could write in the name of her baby.  I remember the t shirt was purple.... but I can't find these pics anywhere.

I wanted to show Claudia Ravaldi (founder of Ciaolapo)  these t-shirts just for different ideas for Ciaolapo T-shirts.

Can anyone help???

thank you

1 Year....

Today is Thea's Angelversary.  I will put up pictures tomorrow.

I miss you little princess.....

<3 <3 <3